Thanks Zoso77--it was a beautiful meeting and worth it. I don't know why so much anxiety and resistance but I have had it...and now...having gone...it was wonderful...and hard...but I knew that I was in the right place...and the sharing was so good...and meaningful. I don't have any answers except to know that I did a good thing today for me...and I need to go back...also bought the book so I can read and understand more.