SJ, overly cheerful peoples make me wish to punch them. I mean, Jesus, I can barely tolerates you guys!
BS, I really not afraid to be sober. I just too lame and/or incapable to do it. Although, hopeful I not be drinking again after last fail attempt. I had no identity when I go off rails either, so who know what lurk underneath. For sure is gonna be lot of bats in there, but I think they very cute. Like hamster with wings! Only thing I really scared of, is if I has to face lower lows, cuz, poll already lowered to my limbo threshold.
I having nightmare too lately. They mostly about my deep loneliness. Like last night, both my brother throw huge dinner parties but neither invite me. So I wandering around between the parties like lonely ghost. Then I decide I will try to sneak food so I can binge and throw up. Good times.