Welcome back, Butterfly.
Although I wish your awakening hadn't been so painful for you, I'm very happy to see that you're in a better place as a result.
I never got a "hopeless alcoholic" vibe from you, and I'm thrilled for you that you've managed to put together fifty days sober.
People who are new here can draw inspiration from your story. Not only have you worked very hard, but you've also learned from your suffering. Priceless.