I should clarify... I am okay with being alone... I am alone after the girls are in bed every night (and theyre little so in bed early)...
I have stopped being here so much or being online with friends or on the phone bc of that realization that I was trying to hide from having to deal with being alone...
But the lonely feeling is new... I am a social creature and love to chat and share stuff with others... And I just am confused about how to be happy/okay being alone, but also deal with being lonely...
I guess I dont subscribe to the "if I am happy being alone, all will be well...". Some people seem to like or need more alone time than others... I am not one of them... My career is a people person career and I talk all day long as part of my job... It's just hard to not have someone at home to talk to about my day...
Maybe this is just about being mopey today and wishing for a life that isn't what I have...
This too shall pass I guess...