I think caffeine is a core part of my issues with sleeplessness, poor quality sleep when I do sleep, headaches, anxiety, gastrointestinal issues and stress.
And yet, try as I might.... every day I get up and I have it again.....
It's just like alcohol. I tell myself Today I Will Stop. Then I don't. I tell myself "I'll wean my way off it..."
I make a little progress.... then I'm right back to binging.
I get up in the morning and I'm not sweating and I'm exhausted but relaxed.
I have a cup or two of coffee and my hands and feet are sweating and my heart rate is elevated.
I try to stop - but the headaches I get within a few hours of waking are unbearable.... so I take excedrin with caffeiene and coffee to kill the headache and it all starts again.
I feel like a slave to it.... I intuitively know that overall, it is not contributing positively to me physically, emotionally, psychologically. But I fail to get out from under it.