I bet you don't really enjoy drinking so much when you have to hold on tight to control it .... am I right ?
I spent years at social functions watching most other people just sip away quietly ... meanwhile I'm drinking two to their one, in an effort to not get too smashed, or looking like too much of a problem drinker.
But if I could have got away with it, without my wife getting upset at me, it would have been more like a 3 or 4 to 1 ratio.
I drank to get drunk .... God it used to pain me to have to control it.
Eventually I stopped trying & just tied one on .... stuff what other people thought & stuff what my wife thought ..... I stopped caring.
Maybe this doesn't describe you at all OR maybe this doesn't describe you yet
If you start to slide towards the yet or if you do recognise a bit of yourself in what I wrote ...... take it from me ... it is easier to do something about it now & nip it in the bud.
The downward slide can get very steep with little or no warning.