I hate to point fingers or make assumptions about people in regards to their drinking habits (boy did I use to hate all the accusations), but no matter how you try to play it off...based on your posts here as of late you do seem to have quite the obsession with alcohol.
I know I had those occasions (although very rare) where I managed to cut myself off at a few and think "well that wasnt really all that great" or "well I managed to be content with that, I must have things under control now". I was fooling myself, you may or may not be doing the same.