mpr,
Maybe you are really trying to help people and I'm just not seeing it, but I do wish you the best. But to me, alcohol is the devil, trying to pick us off one at a time, and I'm concerned that your name is moving up that list. I just hope you are being honest with yourself as far as why you decided to drink again after over 7 years of sobriety. I have also read many times on this forum that the longer a person stays sober, the worse it is if they decide to drink and the harder and quicker they fall. People in AA that had long-term sobriety than went back out again have talked about this also. What they went through was horrible. Then there are those who just disappear.
Don't know why you are willing to take the chance, especially over something you say you don't like anymore, but that's your business. Just don't see the point.
Again, I wish you all the best and hope everything turns out okay for you. John