Keep going Cow. I'm glad you got sick from it. That is probably the best thing that could have happened to you. My body changed to not be able to tolerate it after some clean time. It's really really over between me and the booze and it sounds like it might be the same for you.
I saw some HBO doc from 2008 about addictions. They found it takes a split second trigger to activate the pleasure center into screaming "DO IT". The part of our brain that has evolved to keep us from doing harmful things isn't as fast.
Hope you feel better soon.