I don't romanticize wine - and I'm terrified of even tasting it in food because I have actually fully accepted that I can never drink again and just don't want anything to do with it. I never ever want to feel drunk nor do I ever want another hangover again!
Food and wine were just a huge part of our lives. My husband can drink half a glass and forget about it. The circle of friends has changed a lot, as has what we do and don't participate in. I feel badly for my husband, even though he has been SUPER SUPPORTIVE, because he's had to give up things too.
I live in a world where wine is omnipresent. On the table, used in food, it's everywhere. I can't exactly move.
I just sometimes get tired of having to always be on guard to not eat it in food accidentally and I feel like I can never forget that I'm an alcoholic. Even just having dinner out - it's always there lurking.