Sober me really really wants this to be my first day of sobriety.... addict me really really wants to drown myself in wine and ciders right now and just calm the f*** down and be "happy" again.
You don't need to do that. Don't do it. It will only make things worse... I don't know what kind of problems you are going through but I know what's it's like to have sorrows and you can't drown them in alcohol. Believe me I've tried! All you will have is the same problems plus a hangover.
I'm trying for 30 days which it has been seriously awhile since I made it that long... it's been awhile since I made it 5 days!! It's always a bad idea to drink when you're sad though... alcohol is a depressant so it's like throwing gas on a fire. Try doing something nice for yourself. Buy yourself a beautiful bouquet of flowers instead of a bottle.
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