I think I'm ready
I think I'm ready...maybe 90% only...but I think I am ready to accept that I am an addict.
I spent the last 3 hours crying on the bathroom floor. There's no way I can convince myself that I can control this anymore.
And I feel sorry for myself. I feel like I have a flaw, like there's something wrong with me. Like how I felt the first time the Dr told me I needed glasses.
I am not perfect.
But if I don't do anything about it, if I don't take care of myself I am going to die.
I don't want my little boy to spend the rest of his life mourning a dead mom. I know how that feels and it sucks.
I am an addict.
Why can't I stop feeling sorry for myself?