I found that once I realized that the notion of it being 'nice' was wrong, wrong because for me the 'nice' almost always lead to disaster and even if 'nice' happened it was really just setting up the next disaster, once I got that and confronted those thoughts , ackowledged the 'lie', the less it was presented.
Drinking to the levels that make it a problem is a progression, starving out the AV is a progression of sorts too. I still get the silly notion not as often and not as 'loud', but the more time that passes the easier it is to say' oh yeah right, did you forget Who you are trying to kid here, believe me it wont be pretty, go away , you know you are a moron" That kind of thing
wish you well