Maia,
I am sorry. It hurts a lot to say goodbye to dreams that meant so much to us.
Feel your feelings and embrace them, as much as it hurts, it will actually help you to heal, and to clear your mind.
Just know that we are here, we understand, and will walk with you. Its very sad, I know. But you will find joy again...the sadness passes, and new things on your horizon will entice you to leave the sorrow behind, eventually, when its time. Be sure to take care of yourself, do things you love, and spend time with others, if you can.
You are not alone.
