No matter what anyone in AA told me or what I did in my first 6 months of sobriety ... it just sucked ... plain and simple. Heck, even after a year I still had cravings. Early sobriety sucks. I don't care what AA people have to say about that. At the same time, AA ultimately saved me from going back out there. By being around people that I was accountable to in meetings, talking to my sponsor, and praying were very key those first several months for me (I wouldn't have admitted it back then). By the way, it's not going to get any easier. It's a progressive disease and it never gets better. It always gets worse ... until you get sober and stay sober.