You have to let go of the guilt. Nothing you say will make him want to get healthy. I completely can relate to what you're feeling. It's been 3 weeks for me. I still worry about him, but I'm also enjoying the peace & quiet and I don't miss the drama & chaos. It get easier each day. I still love him & miss who he used to be, but I need to take care of myself. Hang in there & stay strong!