Originally Posted by
Gilmer 
I think many of us were ambivalent that maybe someday we wouldn't have to be so "radical"--that one day we'd be able to drink again. I posted on here for my first eleven months with that mindset. My moderation slowly changed after a couple relapses into full-on drinking within a week. Eventually it became clear that drinking and I just don't mix and never will again. It took awhile of grieving, but now I'm totally OK with it--in fact, I vastly prefer it.
But the realization was gradual. I am immensely grateful that I had the support and fellowship of SR to support me and guide me while I was going through a lot of angst.
I have found that SR is a very non-judgmental place where people offer helpful advice based on experience--but nobody forces you to walk any planks.
I encourage you to hang around for as long as you like. It's such a positive place.
Gilmer's post is "right on".
I, for one, cannot moderate; all attempts have been an abysmal failure and I never want to go back there.
I hope you continue to hang around, too, Kirsten.
(Just a little bit of a heads-up; posts on moderation attempts can push some hot buttons around here as the overwhelming majority of us have tried with very poor results).