Hi Sokar
I think a lot of people still believe an alcoholic is someone who needs to drink every day and every time they drink they cannot stop.
Neither of those things has been true on my experience, although after 20 years I did come to typify that 'worst case scenario' kind of drinker.
I started off a very occasional drinker - there was alcoholism in my family too - but I always drank to get wasted. I should have heeded that warning sign.
Whether or not you think you are an alcoholic or not, clearly there's a problem in your life with alcohol that needs addressing. You'll find a lot of support, encouragement and ideas here
welcome
D