WoW... I took a day off today and i come back to all of these posts... I cant say enough thanks to everyone here.... Thank you for taking the time to write up all of these helpful posts..
I will give everyone an update... I had a counseling appt today at the VA... and yes situation depression seems to be the culprit here and they gave me something to help me take the edge off and try to help me focus on me for awhile... after i make it through or when i think its time i can just stop taking it... So lets hope it works...
I will do my best to take all of the advice that i can from all of you..
but I want to share with all of you a milestone in my life right now.... one of the hardest things i have ever done i accomplished tonight...
My ex sent me an email tonight!!! And..... I DELETED IT. I did not reply either....
Go me! You guys and girls rock... thanks for helping