His paychecks do help but I am going to have to figure out how to make it on my own. Have stayed because I keep hoping one day we can live the happily ever after. I haven't left him because of finances and then there's the stubborn part of me that thinks he should leave. This is my childrens home. No not even a remotely stable environment. It's sad when you take the blinders off and look at the situation as it really is, but necessary. I do not want my boys to ever think that it's acceptable behavior. They've seen too much and have had to deal with too much.