Reputation as a Drunk.
I find it tough to get over the fact that for years I was known as a drunk. I didn't have any self-awareness. I thought my drinking in social settings was all fun and games. But the latter few years, it must have been so obvious to everyone that I had a problem.
How could I not see it? I mean, I knew I drank a lot, but I didn't think everyone else could see I was a drunk. So many stupid incidents over the years and yet I still thought I was being the fun, party guy when I was seen as just a drunk....