Verte

In my opinion, this is a good thing while you are trying to turn your ship upright. The terror helped me. Gave me time to realize where my alcohol-drinking tendencies were hiding throughout my life - Surprise! They were everywhere I looked! The time with terror was short compared to the time of the totally warped thinking and confusion that accompanied the duration of my life drinking alcohol.

In time you will start seeing more clearly. Time and riding through the horror was how I found myself in a more peaceful and forgiving state. Giving yourself time to get there might just be a most amazing act of self-love? You are not alone in this. Not at all.