Originally Posted by
Butterfly 
I know jarp it resonated with me. My ah has told me many times he's in love with me and wants his future to bewith me. I have said this many times to him for him to hold onto and a reason to fight. I have also told him I love him and want him home but not while he's drinking!!
What I thought and hoped was good intentions and for the right reasons may not have been and just me trying to manipulate him.
This also resonated with me. I am currently feeling weak-willed and am obsessively reading posts here to avoid contacting my ex. While I think I want to call him and cry so we can comfort each other (as friends do), perhaps I'm just looking to manipulate him back into my life. It's so hard, though. I'm trying to not break down.