Good luck with it mate.
Ever watched a show like "Biggest Loser"
Many people think there is a magic bullet for all types of problems. Fad diets, fad exercise machines are typical magic bullet solutions for weight loss.
Going from 180 kilograms to 90 kilograms takes time.
Ten % inspiration 90% perspiration is the reality.
And getting sober is the same equation.
Hard thinking alone won't conquer hard drinking.
A good hard think is of course required, but actions are necessary beyond that.
I think this realisation is already happening for you.
Think about how ecstatic the BL contestants are at the end of the show.
That can be you in terms of putting in the work to get sober.