LightInside, thanks for sharing your progress and struggles. Stories like yours are so great to hear. Clearly you're human, with faults and shortcomings as well as strong points and virtues. You've stumbled, but you've done the most important thing of all--you got back up and tried again.
I appreciate hearing stuff like this--sometimes I get caught up in thinking that recovery is a straight-line process, and that something must be wrong if I seem to be having a setback or am "stuck" someplace. Your story reminds me to be gentle, to take my time and to let recovery unfold rather than trying to force it.
Thanks especially for the list of specific actions and resources that have helped you.
Wishing you continued strength and clarity, LightInside!