It's okay Torn I'm struggling too, the war for me is by no means won. I'm sorry to hear you're still in the thick of it. Remember that you're still you, listen to that voice deep inside that wants the best for you and wants to pull you out.
I don't think that checklist sounds all that helpful to be honest, I don't think you're the biggest alcoholic known to man, for one thing you're on this site and still looking to recover, that's a GIANT step in the right direction.
I'm rooting for you Torn, dig deep, get better
