So I told separated AH that I wa done waiting for him to sort himself out the other day. at that time I was so determined to stand by this but today I am struggling not to contact him and tell him Im still here for him and I love him as I always do after I make a stand.
I know I shoudnt contact him, I know its not good for me but I worry about him on his own feeling that he has no one to support him
Why do I do this and why do I feel this way, its clear hes not making any effort to seek help and stop drinking its clear that hes not ready and may never be ready. Is this me being a codie, if I tell him im still here and I love him and remind him of how much he loves me and has told me he wants to be wih me is this me trying to control things and allowing myself to listen to his manipulation??