Our addiction is like some friggin critter in our brain. I'm just over 3 months sober and it still makes it's appearances but mostly when I'm in some sort of emotional duress. Sobriety is all about "tangling" with it and getting on through to the other side. As times passes it loses its voice. I think it's probably best that we accept that it's gonna live there like an annoying neighbor for awhile. Eventually it doesn't bother you anymore..it gives up.