Originally Posted by
BottleBlond 
Neverthought---and everyone else:
Anyway, I know other people have much worse problems and I'm not trying to feel sorry for myself. There are many things I am grateful for. I just feel like my biggest enemy in life is ME and my inability to prevail over a freaking LIQUID!!!
I think our problems are relative to our situations and we know you're not playing the victim here or feeling sorry for yourself.
You came here for a reason just like we all have. You are clearly worried and that's a positive instinct.
You'll be able address things better with a clear and sober mind. You know that, because you've been there for a year or more I think you mentioned. That's way more that I ever accomplished.
Life can be difficult and we can't just pick up and leave or go on a vacation on a whim. Although we actually do that when we can because it does help, but in between life can be mundane and overwhelming. People will drink for that mental vacation as well. I used to do all of the time.
Just start with one day a time BB.