They are fine and to the world so am I. I've always been considered the strong one in my family. My mother relied on me to be her dumping ground and I never felt I could be anything but strong and Then after I just keep finding people who need that instead of one's who can give me what I've been lacking. .which is my own dumping ground. I've been strong for a really long time and I don't know how much longer I can do it. I feel so broken and since I have nobody to even be myself sound it's just making it worse. I will never trust anyone because I've never known anyone who was trustworthy. I always have my guard up and I'm preparing for grief and pain always. I swore I wouldn't be my mother and I already am.