(( Kath ))
I am sorry to hear you are drinking again.I was drinking when my mom passed.I also drank with a vengence after she was gone.You and I both know that is not a solution.Grief is a really wild ride.I too suffer from a lack of feeling at times.Today I am working thru it.Trying to find a balance between too much feeling and too little is not easy,but I trust the process of my recovery.For me grief + alcohol = a big mess.I really fear for you.Get to a meeting Kath.