Hi OnlyMe, welcome to SR. I never tried to stop drinking once I realized I had a problem. I only had a vague hope that the next time would be different. It was only after my life started falling apart did I do anything about it. You at least have tried and gotten some sober time in. Six weeks. Three months. That's great! Better than I managed. It was only after I got active about quitting did anything change. Going to AA meetings. Reaching out for support and telling people I was struggling. Living consciously instead of functioning on autopilot and reaching for alcohol out of habit.
You can do it. Joining here is a good step. If you can't get to or find AA meetings near you for face to face support, post here.