Sounds like you have the right attitude and will do this. Your head is on straight, just dealing with the AV lies like the rest of us crew. I slipped about a hundred times. Seems to be part of the journey. The thinking of it is better than drinking. You learned that this time.
Go back on read this thread next time you are tempted. Don't beat yourself up, do the opposite, smile in the mirror and saw I am doing this! We got your back, just keep posting.