Thanks dee. This being honest and open is kinda new to me. Really. In all of my attempts at sobriety, I've always kept it to myself and not told anyone, other than the people who would drink with me, that I really wanted to drink. Sobriety doesn't make me unhappy. The fact that I don't know how to deal with all these people makes me unhappy. The mere thought of wanting a drink makes me unhappy. Am I being selfish? Am I doing something wrong because I don't know how to properly
Express myself? I'm sick of all the grey areas--- I just want black and white.