I actually attended one meeting heavily intoxicated...Not fall down/black out drunk...But i was obviously under the influence.
I started that night drinking in my office...When a voice in my head said *get out of here now...Or horrible things will happen*
Those horrible things could have been...
A) Getting fired
B) Making an absolute idiot of myself to someone who was left at the office.
C) Quite frankly...Maybe continuing that night to drink myself right back into Rehab. (Which i have done before.)
I remember getting up...A hazy subway ride...Taking a taxi to my AA meeting..Showing up 30 minutes late...Staggering and seeing the stares/looks of sadness/anger/confusion on several folks at the meeting.
It's another memory i can't/won't forget. But i was welcomed back...And they've helped me stay sober for 23 days now.
AA meetings after all are for alcoholics/folks who think they have a problem with drinking. (It's where i belong. It's where i fit in.)
I'll keep coming back. And each time i do now. I'm there sober.
Don't under estimate this. Every first drink i think about...I'm playing with my life.
It's NOT worth the risk.
Have a safe and sober day friends.
