Katie,
I too struggled with pressing charges against my two adult kids when they stole, lied and stole some more. My heart broke and is still in pain. However, they did what they did because of this horrible disease of addiction and both girls needed to be held accountable to their crimes. All this to feed their addiction.
I love my RADs so, but at the time of their drugging it up, they loved drugs more. No matter what I said, pleaded with them, cried and bargained, the AV was stronger than a mothers whispered love.
Now, they don't even remember the pain they caused and the fear I still have. Everything is locked up or hidden. My trust in my children continues to be weak.
I'm sorry you feel this unmerciful heartache, which many of us mammas do. Time will give you some peace, some relief.
You know what you have to do and we are all here to support you.
I will be thinking good thoughts and say a prayer for you and your family.
TF