Wow, your story is amazing. Definitely a second chance at life! I've tried and failed before, too. I'm on Day 1 now after moderating for the past week in anticipation of stopping completely today. I just finally accepted that I cannot control my drinking, and it will completely ruin my life if I don't stop. The last time I tried stopping, I disrespected the disease and had the illusion of control. Now, I am humbled and open to possibilities. I hope it works this time.