I also can't have just one or two drinks if I'm in a setting where I can continue to get more. Things get neglected because I spend all my free time drinking. I guess that's the nature of alcoholism.
I'm sure others are like me and told themselves for years they can learn to moderate or abstain. Then after a few days without, having that "one" drink starts the cycle all over again. I had a friend who went to AA and said it's impossible for most alcoholics to stop without seeking some sort of help. Not sure how true that is, but after 15 years I'm finally starting to believe it.
Congrats on your 5 days and Good luck.