Hi everyone and thanks for your encouragement and discussion
I'm doing ok so far on another day four. Hey FOUR days. Now how about 4 months and onward would be nice. The 4-8-12 is my sobriety date that started during probation.
I had a thought a little while ago but it has passed. What can I do when I have a thought/urge?
Let me see:
Tell my addict voice to shut the duck up
Feel the urge for what it is ...physically and mentally. Look at it from the part of me that is the observer and let the feeling be and don't run from it (I will not explode)
Sit down and close my eyes and take 10deep breaths and go into meditation.
Call someone in recovery and tell them I want to use
Call anyone just to talk (ie my kids)
Pray (which for me is more like an affirmation....ie "I pray to be honest and kind and willing to change"
Check out HALT (hungry angry lonely tired). And try to take care of anything that needs attention
Check out HOW( am I being honest open and willing?)
Go to a meeting
WRITE/READ/POST
Listen to self help talks
Listen to music
Write a gratitude list.
And if all else fails have someone duct tape me so I can't move or
Go to a police station and make a donation of the money in my wallet and my car keys
Some of these things can be done when I'm not having an urge also and should be part of daily activity
Ok I'm gonna do the deep breaths and meditation and go from there!