Hi Searching Peace - Welcome to SR
I'm glad you're feeling a little better. If you ever need to, please do bookmark and look through this link - there's a lot of reading there and international numbers for crisis help for suicide.
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ease-read.html
You deserve a happy life as much as anyone else
I know how hard it is to see beyond the despair of the moment, and to fear it will always be this way...but it won't
I was dreadfully unhappy in my 20s...I'm glad I'm still here just about to enter my 50s....I've seen some amazing changes in my life and met some amazing wonderful people on the way.
If you look through the link I posted above you'll see crisis numbers and other forums where you will get dedicated help.
Sometimes it's really hard to find the way forward - but a helping hand, from someone who knows what they're doing, can really help.
Please do keep yourself safe
Dee
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