Glad you are here TIB & am sorry that you are struggling - I'm sure you will find lots of support & suggestions here. I find a lot of comfort knowing that I am not alone in this...I find hope in the stories I read here & also have connected with a couple of people in my community that share my struggle. Be kind to yourself as you would a friend.....let go of the past & move forward. You've made a good decision to make this change, feel good about yourself for that...that is huge. ((Hugs to you))