I drank yesterday. I just don't seem to get it. It started with football at a friend's house and since it was his birthday, I chose to drink with him. Of course, I never stopped. Later after I returned home, I was so furious at myself because I felt crappy (pre-hangover) and out of control. I was ****** to my kids and wife. I ended up kicking a hole in the wall out of frustration with myself. I passed out and then woke up at 11:30pm with alcohol induced insomnia and couldn't sleep until 5am. I slept through my kids getting ready for school and I have a 4 day business trip, so I won't see them again until this weekend. What a great dad I am. I feel awful today. I am so tired of this BS.
This morning, for some reason, I did something different. I reached out and made contact with a live person and asked for help. Today, I will stay sober.