Thanks for this…
To Hammer: I love M.Scott Peck and I loved the book People of the Lie. Disturbing, but compelling.
And, Shooting Star and Thumper, thanks for highlighting Anvilhead II's quote:
my dreams were too limited.
the Universe knew better.
I have experienced that truly in my life, when life was at its worst (according to me) and God/the Universe showed me up.
Thanks, again, for reminding me.
To answer the OP question, I believe my "original hurt" (like Original Sin) is that my father chose alcoholism and death over me. I think I've spent a lifetime trying to turn that around.