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I'm still here. I wanted it to be over and I wanted him to stay so we could just continue our dream. I don't know if that can or will now. He was clean for 23 yrs. we had a rash of horrible disasters happen and just when we thought we were going to come out of it he started using and went crazy. I came from a Leave it to Beaver style life. He cooked and sold then got clean all before I knew him. He always told me I never wanted to know that person he was and that that person was mean. He was totally utterly right. I'm scared he won't be the gentle caring person he was. He says he not using right now and told me that he will go to mtgs. I'm trying to find some for me in our area. It feels like a bad dream. I'm so tired now. All I want to do is sleep.