Thanks guys. It means so much to know I have you all behind me.
I know I'm preaching to the choir here, but it's so important for me to have the support of people who get it. My STBXAH is a nice enough guy. He doesn't mean any harm, and we probably get along better now than we have in ages. I'm very, very lucky that way, and I know it. Still, living in a house with active addiction was like living in a carnival fun house. Totally disorienting. Sometimes it feels like I'm simply trying to figure out how gravity works again. But, like I said, you get it.
You all help turn my fear of the unknown into excitement of the possibilities. I'm so grateful to everyone here.