Thank you Hopeful4. I cannot go through what I endured years ago with his use. It was truly painful. We were on/ off. Over the last few years, I sought counselling and worked on my esteem. I'm stronger to the point where I can walk away knowing that it will hurt, but also knowing that I CAN have a future which is drug free.
This is the first time I reacted angrily to him over the last few months. I haven't questioned where he is/ what he is doing. He has shown me differently and has been accountable for the most part. The 'other' part is where I trusted. I can't always police his time.. nor do I ever want to again (codependency).
I live in Ontario, Canada. Can anyone who lives here msg me where drug testing can be done aside from visiting a doctor?