Asking for a drug test
I feel so angry.
I'm angry at myself.
I'm angry at him.
I'm angry at his friends/ fiends.
I'm angry at the lies.
I feel somewhat hopeless again.. that I might be back at the start line again.
I have no proof. Yet his behaviour last night says otherwise.
Is it right for me to ask him to do a drug test? I feel guilty asking especially after all the 'progress' and positive changes he has made over the last few months. Is it me? Is it my codependency acting up?
If he chooses not to, does this mean he's guilty? Does this mean I have been fooled again.. ? Does this mean I'm an idiot :-( ?
If he's innocent, when will this insecurity ever leave? :-(