Sorry to be blunt but time to move on. Addicts do have feelings and care for people but in the throws of addiction love is next to impossible. He might feel guilty every now and then but blows away those feelings with drugs and then probably blames you for much of his addiction. It is a very sick cycle and hard to understand, but it is the truth. I don't want to be rude so don't take this the wrong way, but even if he did recover how could you even want to go back to him considering all that has happened? It sounds like you deserve WAY WAY better and you just are not going to get that with him. MOVE ON - MOVE ON - DID I SAY MOVE ON? And this is coming from a STONE COLD DOPE ADDICT!!! You only live once (at least that is what I believe) and you have already wasted way too much time on this guy. Do yourself a favor and find a new man who can love you and treat you like you deserve to be treated!!!