Have you done the enneagram? You must be a 1 too.
I just try so hard to find some kind of logical or rules based reasoning behind this stuff but there is none. I can ask "why" questions all day to the freaking Pope and there wouldn't be sufficient answers to satisfy me. I just don't understand God or what God does since I feel like God can't really do anything but yet causes some stuff but only good stuff. I get that I'm powerless over some things but there is so much responsibility on my shoulders that it makes it difficult to reconcile the differences between powerlessness and control. I am both things at the same time. So where's God?