I think that may have been my bottom?
An emptiness. A feeling of being void of any emotions.
Pinch me do I not hurt? Well at the time No I didn't, or so it felt.
Having felt so empty and knowing I couldn't locate or replace what was missing has given me the understanding that love truly comes from God.
I now feel a full measure and I know it was His placing His love in me that now allows me to laugh, cry, hug, enjoy, love, and be loved.
What a yuck feeling that emptiness was. I don't ever want to go back there again.